Chapter 122: Poetry: A Heart without a map

I wish I had it all figured out,

But I'm stuck in the middle of the road,

Confused between left and right,

Unable to choose between sweet and savour.

I wish I had it all figured out,

To know what to hold and what to let go,

To understand myself a little more,

What I truly love, and what I don’t.

I wish I had it all figured out,

So I could smile without a mask,

And walk freely without the weight

Of the scars I quietly hide.

I wish I had it all figured out,

So I could bring joy, not pain,

To brighten someone’s cloudy day,

Without the fear of hurting again.

But the truth is, I don’t.

I’m learning as I grow,

Taking one uncertain step

On a road I do not fully know.

Maybe that’s what life is,

Not always having a plan,

But finding strength in not knowing,

And still doing the best I can.

So even if I stumble now,

And carry doubts I cannot name,

I’ll keep walking with hope in my heart,

And love myself just the same.

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